Hi all generous people here.To give you the full picture I have to lay out my history,please read carefully,that’s my live between the lines…thank you.
In 2011 I- Meny married my sweet wife Lilly, we were in our mid-20’s, we lived from limited & occasional salaries,we didn’t manage to get to an adequate and steady income,Lilly did temporary jobs in several educational institutions here and there, and I was a private tutor.
Within a year, we had born our daughter Chaya and then the situation became even more pressing, and we accumulated a considerable sum of interest-bearing loans, and after a year she was pregnant again with our son Nati,I am naturally a calculating person, and I was very stressed,I entered into a prolonged anxiety [from which I had not left yet].
So I spoke to friends, I wanted to understand how I could make a living without any degree or professionalization,
I got very vague answers, which really depressed me; One day I spoke with one of my friends an impressive man in the ow 4o’s about my situation, I asked him – what can I do,should I open a business etc.? suddenly he jumped, he told me he was day-trading with stocks and lost -a fortune thru day trading, but he knows me, and he is sure I will succeed …,
I told him I had no idea what it is, I never read or delved into it, so he told me to go to a specific site where I can look up the stuff I need,I went to that site, read and watched their videos and thought innocently that this was it, I am qualified and ready to do day-trade…
I jumped into the quicksand of trading and loans without understanding what I had missed…
The sequel is understandable alone, 5 years I was wallowing in that mud and had been ‘harassed’ there, I lost over 80,000$ !! directly from trading,once you lose a certain amount that you should not have lost according to your personal situation, then you put in more, ‘only temporary’ to cover the loss and escape .. And then begins the ‘DEATH SPIRAL’, until you can’t anymore continue the horror, and raise hands ..
Additionally,my indirectly loss, during those years I did nothing to revive and repay the debts I had, and that cost me a lot …
So accumulated loans, interest rates, capital I lost, improper expenses, adds up to mountains of debts I do not have any idea how I could ever repay them and support a family of five at the same time [our son Eli was born meanwhile], and I wouldn’t even elaborate our non-financial damages that I caused us. its enough to understand alone.
I am under a very heavy mental burden, even writing this makes it difficult for me, I can not see myself
beyond my daily survival,i’m persecuted by my lenders,I’m feeling suffocated and choked ..insolvency is poison on a daily basis, it gnaws at me and depresses me, I never dreamed that I would ever be in such status.
My hope is to professionalize and re-plan and restart my life from zero,but my funds are below zero..
Today we rely on minimum salaries and without the support of family.
Dear brothers and sisters! Please, take a deep look in our situation,feel our experiences and come towards us,DON’T LET MY SHIP SINK!! I do not know how you can help – but that’s what I have left to ask for.
May the one above give you wealth and rest and you should never experience our ‘sensations’…

Apologetically and with great regret, Meny